This is the stuff

My mom called me yesterday and left me a message on my phone telling me that she just listened to a song that reminded her of me. :) lol. Of course I had to check it out. I absolutely love it. I've been getting really into Christian music and taking time in the morning on my drive to work to pray and worship. :) This song can be added to the list and I love it. :) It really is a good descriptor of my life..I mean the other day I forgot to put one contact in the other eye, I've rearended someone on the way to take my GRE test, I'm always getting lost, and I swear my life is mostly chaos the majority of the time. Due to the fact that I'm spacy, somewhat disorganized, and always daydreaming. Oh well :)

Here is the song:

"This is the Stuff"
By Francesca Battistelli

I lost my keys in the great unknown
And call me please 'Cuz I can't find my phone

This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use

45 in a 35
Sirens and fines while I'm running behind
Whoa

This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use

So break me of impatience
Conquer my frustrations
I've got a new appreciation
It's not the end of the world
Oh Oh Oh

This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff
Someone save me
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
And I've gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use

Oh Oh Oh Oh
This is the stuff You use

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yVnAyD96G3A

Post Secret..

Okay..so every Sunday I'm a total nerd and look forward to the Post Secrets that come out. The whole idea of post secret is so interesting to me. Anonymous people putting their secrets on post cards and sending them to a complete stranger to publish on the web and in books. It first started out as an anti-suicide campaign and now it's a place for happy, sad, frustrated, compelled, sneaky, guilty, excited, loving people all over the world to share their deepest darkest and sometimes brightest secrets.

I can't help but love the novelty of sharing secrets with strangers and getting to see the art and read the quirks that go with it that push the envelope and seem a bit rebellious at times. These postcards sometimes state the things we feel deep down inside but would never want to admit! I love it. It's so embrasive of the human condition. :) Frank is the guy that started this whole idea and publishes the books and distributes and creates the website. He also came to Eastern to speak and I sat in and watched as many of my fellow classmates bravely went up to confess their secret in front of tons of students. It was truly liberating. Although I'm not as brave as the few that boldly pronounced their secrets in public it still was internally liberating.

I've ALWAYS wanted to get enough guts to send a postcard with my secret to frank...but what would it be? I started journaling in my hidden journal online all of my secrets. I have about two hundred. :) Some of them are quirks, some funny, some sad, some shameful..all part of the brokenness of what makes up a human really :) especially an eratic, impulsive, overly romantic one like me. I really wish that I could get all my friends together and share all of our secrets in a public display, it's a provoking idea...I wish I could start an art project downtown under the bridges for secrets to be displayed for those that spend their lives on the streets. It's a cool idea really..or if we could even paint our secrets under the bridge. I find it beautifully artistic..in a raw imposing kind of way. :)

So...in honor of frank I will share a few of my less invasive secrets (because I have to keep it on the safe side..although sharing with Erin is about as safe as you can get...but for the rest of the online community who may stumble upon this..hehe..I"ll play it on the safe side.)

Secrets(I wish I could display my art along with them I really do..)

-Everytime I go to a fast food restaraunt I always order water but sneak lemonade instead


-I would much rather dance by myself...


-I make up my own song lyrics..I think they sound better that way


-I judge the people in front of me at the grocery store by what kind of food they buy...


-I have a different song that represents every wonderful person in my life

this month :)

Things I've learned this month....

-It's okay to be a little crazy, irratic, and impulsive every once in awhile

-overbooking=still not making everyone happy..

-road trips alone sometimes are the best therapy

-Sometimes you just have to make an excel spreadsheet to organize all wedding details

-Don't feel guilty for being you

-helping people in my new job is making me the happiest I've ever been at work

-Good wine, good friend, ridiculous fun amazing non judgmental conversations are the best release in life

-Achieving something that you've worked hard at is the best!!! (Grad school woo!)

-You really can live off of microwavable meals and still lose weight.haha.

-Just Dance! on the Wii is the best game ever..

-Those who stray are not always lost..

-Change can be good! :)