This past month has been kind of a strange one for me. I had to turn a job offer down that offered me more money because of what I stand for...I have had a couple conflicts..and I've had a few people in my life really dissapoint me. I've also had people inspire me and tolerate me ;) and felt what it was really like to miss my other half. What I've learned this past month:
.....Never apologize for voicing what's right...even if doesn't go over smoothly with others.....
....friends will let you down, and lift you up...
...Sometimes silence is better than a response...
...Music and e-mails from good friends cure lonliness....
...worship awakens the soul...green tea awakens me :) ..
...All anybody ever wants is to be listened to...
...watching puppies is better than shopping alone...
...Having friends from every generation is refreshing...
....shopping online is dangerous...
..lawyers can be weird too...
...half of my best friends are the furthest away from me...
....Grace Kelly may be my new Audrey Hepburn...
....it's okay to say "no" to shmoozin and boozin....
....facebook off....J.D. Salinger on...
...missing someone can make you fall in love with them all over again..
....True Blood is addicting!...
...a break from running is an invite for stress....
...driving in the snow is really not that bad...
...you don't have to spend all your money by pay day....
...I am blessed (but I already knew that :D )
From a sentimental free spirit's perception
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Airports
Airports are a sanctity in many ways. An energy...a wide eyed liberation...a beating heart breaking through, a breath inhaled in new fresh air. A soft kiss from a lover you've been missing for weeks, months, years. A grandmother with her eyes welling reaching out for that gratifying grasp. It's peace and rest and boredom. It's an answer to the end of the security line. Uncomfortable black seats, free wi fi, pilots draggin their suitcases behind them on their next journey--so prestige and ironed. It's achy bones and tired eyes. But one thing that I love most about airports is that it's that first moment where you enter a new realm, a new find waiting to be discovered. I notice something different about my hometown everytime I get off a plane and step onto it's announcing cold frigid concrete biting back at my temporary disapearance.
The airport is the only place that I can waste time and not feel guilty. I can get that book finished and I can people watch better than I can even at the downtown mall. I love people so much. I feed off of strangers energy, off of their emotion. I see the weary mom dragging her child behind her trying to find an impossible healthy food choice for her boy. I see a woman dressed to the "t" with beautiful blonde hair down to her back and searching eyes hoping someone will give her a second glance as a reward for her hours of preparedness of the day. I see screaming teenagers exhilerated to run into an old friend traveling to the same destination. I notice the way I feel in an airport, both escape and return. Always there is a lingering anxiety. A livening anxiety at most. But everytime I enter an airport I hope I run into someone I know. Someone that I will recognize. Sometimes my vision expectantly plays tricks on me and everyone looks distincty familiar. That little girl reminds me of my cousin, that beautiful twenty something year old man reminds me of an ex lover. That older woman reminds me of my best friends mom. It always brings me back to the reality that although we are all individuals and rare in every sense of the word we are all somehow someway connected to humanity. <3
The airport is the only place that I can waste time and not feel guilty. I can get that book finished and I can people watch better than I can even at the downtown mall. I love people so much. I feed off of strangers energy, off of their emotion. I see the weary mom dragging her child behind her trying to find an impossible healthy food choice for her boy. I see a woman dressed to the "t" with beautiful blonde hair down to her back and searching eyes hoping someone will give her a second glance as a reward for her hours of preparedness of the day. I see screaming teenagers exhilerated to run into an old friend traveling to the same destination. I notice the way I feel in an airport, both escape and return. Always there is a lingering anxiety. A livening anxiety at most. But everytime I enter an airport I hope I run into someone I know. Someone that I will recognize. Sometimes my vision expectantly plays tricks on me and everyone looks distincty familiar. That little girl reminds me of my cousin, that beautiful twenty something year old man reminds me of an ex lover. That older woman reminds me of my best friends mom. It always brings me back to the reality that although we are all individuals and rare in every sense of the word we are all somehow someway connected to humanity. <3
Monday, November 22, 2010
Add this to the list
...of things to make me cry pre-wedding..hahaha..gosh I'm pathetic...
The scene with Audrey Hepburn and Fred Astaire when he was photographing her in her wedding dress...
That scene is completely timeless. Audrey Hepburn is an iconic beauty that lived a life of grace and selflessness. She was so incredibly talented and I'm obsessed. lol
ahh I could go on and on about her...I would love to be as beautiful and graceful as her.
Some other favorite brides:
lol...very random but I like them all :)
The scene with Audrey Hepburn and Fred Astaire when he was photographing her in her wedding dress...
That scene is completely timeless. Audrey Hepburn is an iconic beauty that lived a life of grace and selflessness. She was so incredibly talented and I'm obsessed. lol
ahh I could go on and on about her...I would love to be as beautiful and graceful as her.
Some other favorite brides:
lol...very random but I like them all :)
Friday, November 5, 2010
Marry me
First song to bawl like a baby when listening to regaurding my big next move in life :)
I love Alex so much and I'm so excited. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ess2qlVHl6E
Lyrics to Marry Me by Train
Forever can never be long enough for me
Feel like I've had long enough with you
Forget the world now, we won't let them see
But there's one thing left to do
Now that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way
Marry me today and every day
Marry me if I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will, say you will
Together can never be close enough for me
Feel like I am close enough to you
You wear white and I'll wear out the words I love you
And you're beautiful
Now that the wait is over
And love and has finally shown her my way
Marry me today and every day
Marry me if I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will, say you will
Promise me you'll always be happy by my side
I promise to sing to you when all the music dies
And marry me today and everyday
Marry me if I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will, say you will marry me
I love Alex so much and I'm so excited. :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ess2qlVHl6E
Lyrics to Marry Me by Train
Forever can never be long enough for me
Feel like I've had long enough with you
Forget the world now, we won't let them see
But there's one thing left to do
Now that the weight has lifted
Love has surely shifted my way
Marry me today and every day
Marry me if I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will, say you will
Together can never be close enough for me
Feel like I am close enough to you
You wear white and I'll wear out the words I love you
And you're beautiful
Now that the wait is over
And love and has finally shown her my way
Marry me today and every day
Marry me if I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will, say you will
Promise me you'll always be happy by my side
I promise to sing to you when all the music dies
And marry me today and everyday
Marry me if I ever get the nerve to say hello in this cafe
Say you will, say you will marry me
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
You may say I'm a dreamer..but I'm not the only one
Now...my job as of right now has to be one of the most slow going jobs. I have been able to sort out my loan info; get some headway on the wedding website; catch up on all blogs; read online poetry; purchase new shoes online; and e-mail my mother and erin all day long. I also have acquired quite the running list of new music I want to download--inspired from hearing new mu via grooveshark and pandora(apparantly they have a limit on hours you can listen). Along with the internet being pretty much my only source for interpersonal communication(I sit in a cubby away from everyone by myself) my mind is my source of entertainment. I will explain.
Daydreaming. All day at work I daydream. I let my mind enter so many different realms and worlds and I actually have control over who enters these thoughts(unlike night dreams). To defer my brain turning into mush from looking at a screen all day I travel in my mind. Now please don't judge me on my daydreams..I swear I'm not as materialistic or shallow as my daydreams play me out to be ;) at least I'd like to think that. I would like to think of this list as my version of the MTV series "Made"
Top ten things I daydream about
1. Becoming rich in a very random way. Yesterday I daydreamed that one of the lawyers pulled me into his office and told me he was impressed with my mind and wanted to pay off all my loans and pay for the rest of my education..no cost and no favors. I also have the same daydream alot where one of the homeless women that I took care of suddenly strikes it rich and offers my a lump sum haha. I also have the random daydream where a famous rapper runs into me downtown and knocks me over and in an apology offers me moola along with patron on ice.haha. Now what I do with this money I also daydream about: I think about all the places I want to donate..but come on that gets kind of boring in a daydream...so I dream about going on extravagant shopping sprees...tipping very highly at restaraunts...buying an island just for me and most importantly hiring someone to play with my hair everyday and give me massages. haha..
2. Crazy things happening at unlikely places. The most unlikely place: my work. I daydream about the lawyers getting in a crazy fist fight or catching someone making out or my personal favorite...someone breaking into dance and song at my work and then inspiring a dance party. I also daydream about one of the lawyers coming into my cubicle and asking if I would like to help him with a deposition of a crazy person in some insane case. How awesome would that be?
3. Alex and I in our new home. I daydream about this alot as well. I daydream about what our new house is going to look like..what we are going to call our little puppy golden retriever...decorations and making breakfast in bed with him.
4. Being Pheobe off of friends. Now I love Pheobe and lately I have been watching an unhealthy amount of Friends. Lately I have this same daydream where Friends airs again and they ask me to be Pheobe! hahaha..weird I know.
5. New Occupation. I often daydream about getting a new job..go figure...but of course it's jobs like being a fashion designer for Beyonce or being a professional dancer or being an outdoor yoga instructor in California where it's always sunny. I also have daydreamed about being a puppy keeper or a baby holder. I also daydream about finding the perfect non-profit job for me. One of my favorites that I have daydreamed about is becoming a famous poet and having my own "poet's corner" in some wonderful library where I sit and read poetry all day and talk about poems and writing with smart philisophical people all day. hahah
6. Last words. I have also daydreamed about last words. Things I would like to say to people that I would never have the guts to say to them or the chance passed by. I daydream about conversations with people from my past..and some from my present. I daydream about little edgy witty things I could say to the people that have shown me up or gotten under my skin. I also think about words I should have said or things I have said that I regret.
7. Being a bird/Trees. Usually I daydream about this the most when driving home from work. I look up at the beautiful fall trees and I pretend that I am the leaves on them flowing with the wind gracefully so. I am also prone to daydreaming that I am a bird free in the sky.
8. Performing on stage and having an accent. For some reason listening to Kate Nash inspires this daydream. I pretend that I have the voice of Kate Nash and am in some dive bar singing wonderful acoustic songs. :D
9. Europe.
10. Not ever having to work again in my life--only getting to be artistic and creative and lazy some days too. lol
Daydreaming. All day at work I daydream. I let my mind enter so many different realms and worlds and I actually have control over who enters these thoughts(unlike night dreams). To defer my brain turning into mush from looking at a screen all day I travel in my mind. Now please don't judge me on my daydreams..I swear I'm not as materialistic or shallow as my daydreams play me out to be ;) at least I'd like to think that. I would like to think of this list as my version of the MTV series "Made"
Top ten things I daydream about
1. Becoming rich in a very random way. Yesterday I daydreamed that one of the lawyers pulled me into his office and told me he was impressed with my mind and wanted to pay off all my loans and pay for the rest of my education..no cost and no favors. I also have the same daydream alot where one of the homeless women that I took care of suddenly strikes it rich and offers my a lump sum haha. I also have the random daydream where a famous rapper runs into me downtown and knocks me over and in an apology offers me moola along with patron on ice.haha. Now what I do with this money I also daydream about: I think about all the places I want to donate..but come on that gets kind of boring in a daydream...so I dream about going on extravagant shopping sprees...tipping very highly at restaraunts...buying an island just for me and most importantly hiring someone to play with my hair everyday and give me massages. haha..
2. Crazy things happening at unlikely places. The most unlikely place: my work. I daydream about the lawyers getting in a crazy fist fight or catching someone making out or my personal favorite...someone breaking into dance and song at my work and then inspiring a dance party. I also daydream about one of the lawyers coming into my cubicle and asking if I would like to help him with a deposition of a crazy person in some insane case. How awesome would that be?
3. Alex and I in our new home. I daydream about this alot as well. I daydream about what our new house is going to look like..what we are going to call our little puppy golden retriever...decorations and making breakfast in bed with him.
4. Being Pheobe off of friends. Now I love Pheobe and lately I have been watching an unhealthy amount of Friends. Lately I have this same daydream where Friends airs again and they ask me to be Pheobe! hahaha..weird I know.
5. New Occupation. I often daydream about getting a new job..go figure...but of course it's jobs like being a fashion designer for Beyonce or being a professional dancer or being an outdoor yoga instructor in California where it's always sunny. I also have daydreamed about being a puppy keeper or a baby holder. I also daydream about finding the perfect non-profit job for me. One of my favorites that I have daydreamed about is becoming a famous poet and having my own "poet's corner" in some wonderful library where I sit and read poetry all day and talk about poems and writing with smart philisophical people all day. hahah
6. Last words. I have also daydreamed about last words. Things I would like to say to people that I would never have the guts to say to them or the chance passed by. I daydream about conversations with people from my past..and some from my present. I daydream about little edgy witty things I could say to the people that have shown me up or gotten under my skin. I also think about words I should have said or things I have said that I regret.
7. Being a bird/Trees. Usually I daydream about this the most when driving home from work. I look up at the beautiful fall trees and I pretend that I am the leaves on them flowing with the wind gracefully so. I am also prone to daydreaming that I am a bird free in the sky.
8. Performing on stage and having an accent. For some reason listening to Kate Nash inspires this daydream. I pretend that I have the voice of Kate Nash and am in some dive bar singing wonderful acoustic songs. :D
9. Europe.
10. Not ever having to work again in my life--only getting to be artistic and creative and lazy some days too. lol
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Procrastination
Okay...mabye my first small freak out
Lately I've been feeling a little overwhelmed with planning. I figure eh it's a year away can I just have a break? The biggest stressor right now is food. I have no idea how we are going to afford catering with 150 guests or at least not make the majority of our budget solely for catering. I don't know. My aunt is making the cake and cupcakes and my mom rented out the church kitchen already for that. I can't wait to see what my aunt makes..she is amazing. But since my mom already rented out the kitched she offered the idea of having friends/family help make the food in the kitchen the night before...like freeze some lasagnas and then noodles and pasta trays prepared in the morning. I don't know how that's going to work either. Melissa is borrowing warming trays from her work which would be great. Ahhhh there are so many details and honestly I would like to finally open up a credit card because the money that's associated with all this planning is so overwhelming.
Then there are the flowers. I found a really good florist that I like...thanks to Erin :D and I put together some ideas for the bouquets but then when all was said and done the bouquets looked to casual for the dresses I will probably pick for bridesmaids and for my dress. So now we are back to square one.
Centerpieces..I have racked my mind for ideas on centerpieces. I have thought of millions of things but none of them stand out to me. I want something creative and beautiful that I can piece together.
Pre-marital counseling would be so much simpler if we lived over on the west side because the person who is marrying us--Tom Helm...also the man that baptized me and one of my dad's closest friends...is over on the west side and he's the one with all the information for who could counsel us...etc. ahhhhh
Then there is our honeymoon..which we really need to sort out the details for but really need to start saving for. Alex and I really need to learn how to not go out so much...we are just both such social creatures but we really need to start budgeting ourselves..I'm just as bad if not worse than him.
The list. We started making our list and our first draft was over 200 people!!!! Now we need to cut back..how do you cut back??? all I know is I can't make any more friends at all from here until the wedding.
pretty much it all feels far too overwhelming and I would like to just not think about any of this for a long time...I just want to be able to fall asleep and not stress about how I am going to get this to all come together.
Here are some more ideas for my wedding...
I really like this bouquet :D
I loved this for our invite envelopes:
I was thinking about making these for all the sorority girls to wear either in their hair or as a pin :D
Centerpiece ideas:
For cards :D
Two favorite gowns I've seen on the web:
http://www.allurebridals.com/index.php?id=3&product_id=525
and
http://www.allurebridals.com/index.php?id=3&product_id=523
The one thing I am very excited about is moving in together. It's going to be so amazing living with Alex. I know we will have our ups and downs but I can't wait to be able to go to sleep with alex next to me every night and wake up to him everyday. I love him so much...and I guess in the end that's all that matters :D
Lately I've been feeling a little overwhelmed with planning. I figure eh it's a year away can I just have a break? The biggest stressor right now is food. I have no idea how we are going to afford catering with 150 guests or at least not make the majority of our budget solely for catering. I don't know. My aunt is making the cake and cupcakes and my mom rented out the church kitchen already for that. I can't wait to see what my aunt makes..she is amazing. But since my mom already rented out the kitched she offered the idea of having friends/family help make the food in the kitchen the night before...like freeze some lasagnas and then noodles and pasta trays prepared in the morning. I don't know how that's going to work either. Melissa is borrowing warming trays from her work which would be great. Ahhhh there are so many details and honestly I would like to finally open up a credit card because the money that's associated with all this planning is so overwhelming.
Then there are the flowers. I found a really good florist that I like...thanks to Erin :D and I put together some ideas for the bouquets but then when all was said and done the bouquets looked to casual for the dresses I will probably pick for bridesmaids and for my dress. So now we are back to square one.
Centerpieces..I have racked my mind for ideas on centerpieces. I have thought of millions of things but none of them stand out to me. I want something creative and beautiful that I can piece together.
Pre-marital counseling would be so much simpler if we lived over on the west side because the person who is marrying us--Tom Helm...also the man that baptized me and one of my dad's closest friends...is over on the west side and he's the one with all the information for who could counsel us...etc. ahhhhh
Then there is our honeymoon..which we really need to sort out the details for but really need to start saving for. Alex and I really need to learn how to not go out so much...we are just both such social creatures but we really need to start budgeting ourselves..I'm just as bad if not worse than him.
The list. We started making our list and our first draft was over 200 people!!!! Now we need to cut back..how do you cut back??? all I know is I can't make any more friends at all from here until the wedding.
pretty much it all feels far too overwhelming and I would like to just not think about any of this for a long time...I just want to be able to fall asleep and not stress about how I am going to get this to all come together.
Here are some more ideas for my wedding...
I really like this bouquet :D
I loved this for our invite envelopes:
I was thinking about making these for all the sorority girls to wear either in their hair or as a pin :D
Centerpiece ideas:
For cards :D
Two favorite gowns I've seen on the web:
http://www.allurebridals.com/index.php?id=3&product_id=525
and
http://www.allurebridals.com/index.php?id=3&product_id=523
The one thing I am very excited about is moving in together. It's going to be so amazing living with Alex. I know we will have our ups and downs but I can't wait to be able to go to sleep with alex next to me every night and wake up to him everyday. I love him so much...and I guess in the end that's all that matters :D
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
hmmm.
Ever since my first heartbreak in the sixth grade by Kevin Eggen the most popular boy in school and my first boyfriend I've had this theory about conflict and ended relationships. Actually I wouldn't really call it a theory I would call it more of a daydream. It's gone through my head probably a million times when I am upset about a situation or a torn/jaded relationship with someone. It all started when I watched the cheesy teeny bopper movie "Can't Hardly Wait." When the ridiculous boy gets stuck in the bathroom with his arch nemesis and the most irritating girl in the world to him. They are stuck in the bathroom with eachother with nothing but conversation or silence(their choice obviously) and an empty bathroom. Well they end up being stuck with eachother and end up finding out that they aren't in fact enemies, but rather mere confused teenagers misunderstood by eachother with more in common then they'd like to admit.
This idea or so-called "daydream" always starts the same. I am in a situation where I end up mistakenly getting locked in the same room with someone that I'm awkward with or someone that I obviously have unsteady feelings towards or conflict with. Now, I would like to believe that in general most people have awkward situations with alot of people where they would dodge behind a taco stand or book it for home as soon as they saw one of these people that fall under the categories of people that I will soon list, but in all reality I feel as though(hopefully not too narcisstic sounding) I have an overwhelming number out of the ordinary amount of people that would fall into said categories. Unfortunately I am notorious to running into the wrong people ALL THE TIME. Now I would like to clarify that my relentless ability to always run into the people I hate to run into at all the wrong times has gotten better since I have, gratefully so, gotten out of the small town of Cheney.
Here are said categories that the people that my idea stems from about fall under: "awkward conflict" or "used to be my best friend but now turned awkward realization that you've grown distant and sadly, nostalgically apart" or "oops drunken make out person that you would never proudly admit to making out with" or "you were sober for my drunken moment" which I would also like to refer to as "blackmail person" that you would never claim to know or the "Unsettled past" person and lastly, my personal favorite "angry broken-hearted hatred ex-boyfriend" category.
Now continueing with this idea of rendering peace and mending all horrible mistakes and situations that have happened in a person's life regaurding relationships. I would like to believe that if I were locked in a room with a person that has entered my life and fallen into one(or maybe even multiple) of categories listed above that somehow we would find peace and gain something that is such a blessing--closure. I would like to believe that if I were to be stuck with any one of these people in my life that I had a coflict with that in the end after being stuck in a locked room together that we would find peace and a relatable distinction that all humanity is connected, including-for whatever reason-those that are at conflict or at war with my present. I have even gone as far to daydream what we would talk about and all of the issues we would resolve when we mistakenly ended up in that locked room. I imagine myself either gaining a friend, resolving a conflict, or finally being able to act civilized in a "run-in." I know this idea seems far fetched but I hope that someday somehow this happens with at least one of the people from my past that has reaped havock on my conscious or on my regrets.
Here is a clip..lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdAfJoj5uGE&feature=related
This idea or so-called "daydream" always starts the same. I am in a situation where I end up mistakenly getting locked in the same room with someone that I'm awkward with or someone that I obviously have unsteady feelings towards or conflict with. Now, I would like to believe that in general most people have awkward situations with alot of people where they would dodge behind a taco stand or book it for home as soon as they saw one of these people that fall under the categories of people that I will soon list, but in all reality I feel as though(hopefully not too narcisstic sounding) I have an overwhelming number out of the ordinary amount of people that would fall into said categories. Unfortunately I am notorious to running into the wrong people ALL THE TIME. Now I would like to clarify that my relentless ability to always run into the people I hate to run into at all the wrong times has gotten better since I have, gratefully so, gotten out of the small town of Cheney.
Here are said categories that the people that my idea stems from about fall under: "awkward conflict" or "used to be my best friend but now turned awkward realization that you've grown distant and sadly, nostalgically apart" or "oops drunken make out person that you would never proudly admit to making out with" or "you were sober for my drunken moment" which I would also like to refer to as "blackmail person" that you would never claim to know or the "Unsettled past" person and lastly, my personal favorite "angry broken-hearted hatred ex-boyfriend" category.
Now continueing with this idea of rendering peace and mending all horrible mistakes and situations that have happened in a person's life regaurding relationships. I would like to believe that if I were locked in a room with a person that has entered my life and fallen into one(or maybe even multiple) of categories listed above that somehow we would find peace and gain something that is such a blessing--closure. I would like to believe that if I were to be stuck with any one of these people in my life that I had a coflict with that in the end after being stuck in a locked room together that we would find peace and a relatable distinction that all humanity is connected, including-for whatever reason-those that are at conflict or at war with my present. I have even gone as far to daydream what we would talk about and all of the issues we would resolve when we mistakenly ended up in that locked room. I imagine myself either gaining a friend, resolving a conflict, or finally being able to act civilized in a "run-in." I know this idea seems far fetched but I hope that someday somehow this happens with at least one of the people from my past that has reaped havock on my conscious or on my regrets.
Here is a clip..lol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wdAfJoj5uGE&feature=related
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Ownership
Now I don't really consider myself a very materialistic person, but out of human condition and being an American I fear that I do have some monetary goals that I would like to attain :D Here are a few:
1. Golden Retriever
2. Vintage reupohlstered vw bus :D
this is so I can cruise around with all of my friends and go on huge road trips and camp on the beach inside my bus :D I would also like a mini fridge in my bus..haha.
3. A nice Canon--I really want to start getting into photography but would like the tools :)
4. A greenhouse!!
5. Walk in closet!!! :D Much like Carrie's in Sex and the City..okay a girl can dream right?
:D That is my ridiculous wish list
1. Golden Retriever
2. Vintage reupohlstered vw bus :D
this is so I can cruise around with all of my friends and go on huge road trips and camp on the beach inside my bus :D I would also like a mini fridge in my bus..haha.
3. A nice Canon--I really want to start getting into photography but would like the tools :)
4. A greenhouse!!
5. Walk in closet!!! :D Much like Carrie's in Sex and the City..okay a girl can dream right?
:D That is my ridiculous wish list
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Invitation
I had to do a seperate post just for my wedding invitation. My best friend, Ashley Laskowski made these and designed them. They are incredible and absolutely perfect!!!
Take a peak!!
Aren't they amazing?
Take a peak!!
Aren't they amazing?
Wedding! wooooo
Okay...so I had to post to do all the updates for the big day!!! :D
Let's start at the beginning...we are getting married August 19th, 2011 at Lake Wilderness Lodge Maple Valley, WA :
http://www.ci.maple-valley.wa.us/index.aspx?page=107
Our wedding will be outdoors in front of the lake and it will be absolutely beautiful. It's nice and green and surrounded in the beauties of nature :D The reception will be held indoors..which is three stories large and has a spiral staircase along with an awesome dance floor! :D
Our photographer: Rendy Tucker
http://www.rendytuckerphotography.com/
Our flowers: still trying to figure all the logistics of this out... :D We have three different options right now :)
Our caterer: ughhhhhh the hardest part so far!! Still looking!!!
Our cake/cupcakes: My aunt is doing the cake...still trying to work out the details of who will end up doing our cupcakes..possibly the caterer
Decorations/ambiance: Sarah is going to make these adorable white paper...we are going to have it themed vintage-y and do home made center pieces and decorations etc. There is this really cute tree idea where you paint a tree and then everyone puts green thumbprints to sign their name and to be the leaves. :D Also..I like the idea of having a tree and hanging notes from the tree
Bridesmaids: :D
Maid of Honor: Melissa Mangano
Bridesmaids: Ashley Laskowski, Erin Thim, Kailey Mutter, Dana Holladay, Kara Young
Amount of guests: 150
and still more to come :D
Let's start at the beginning...we are getting married August 19th, 2011 at Lake Wilderness Lodge Maple Valley, WA :
http://www.ci.maple-valley.wa.us/index.aspx?page=107
Our wedding will be outdoors in front of the lake and it will be absolutely beautiful. It's nice and green and surrounded in the beauties of nature :D The reception will be held indoors..which is three stories large and has a spiral staircase along with an awesome dance floor! :D
Our photographer: Rendy Tucker
http://www.rendytuckerphotography.com/
Our flowers: still trying to figure all the logistics of this out... :D We have three different options right now :)
Our caterer: ughhhhhh the hardest part so far!! Still looking!!!
Our cake/cupcakes: My aunt is doing the cake...still trying to work out the details of who will end up doing our cupcakes..possibly the caterer
Decorations/ambiance: Sarah is going to make these adorable white paper...we are going to have it themed vintage-y and do home made center pieces and decorations etc. There is this really cute tree idea where you paint a tree and then everyone puts green thumbprints to sign their name and to be the leaves. :D Also..I like the idea of having a tree and hanging notes from the tree
Bridesmaids: :D
Maid of Honor: Melissa Mangano
Bridesmaids: Ashley Laskowski, Erin Thim, Kailey Mutter, Dana Holladay, Kara Young
Amount of guests: 150
and still more to come :D
Friday, September 10, 2010
Top Wedding Thoughts
Because I am the bride and it's my perogative I feel that I need to make a list of what's important to me when looking at this wedding Alex and I are going to have. Here is my top list :D
1. Outside Venue! Preferably trees and nature
2. DIY..I want to do alot of the designing and putting together of the wedding myself..or with my mom's creative skills..
3. Photography! I really want my photography to be top notch..something that really represents me. :D Alex and his family really like Jennifer Ashby..I like her as well..another top pick for this is Rendy Tucker...here are their two websites.
Rendy Tucker: http://www.rendytuckerphotography.com/
Jennifer Ashby: http://www.jenniferashbyphotography.com/index2.php#/home/
4. I really want my family involved!!!! I really want my mom and my close friends to be the masterminds of the wedding.
5. I don't want to be pressured into anything I don't want to do...and for once I am going to chose and make decisions on what makes alex and I happy...not everyone else
5. I want this whole experience to be wonderful, easy going, and easy on my friends and family and I want to make sure it's as financially affordable for everyone and not have any kind of grey cloud over any of this :D
:D
SOOOOO EXCITED :D
1. Outside Venue! Preferably trees and nature
2. DIY..I want to do alot of the designing and putting together of the wedding myself..or with my mom's creative skills..
3. Photography! I really want my photography to be top notch..something that really represents me. :D Alex and his family really like Jennifer Ashby..I like her as well..another top pick for this is Rendy Tucker...here are their two websites.
Rendy Tucker: http://www.rendytuckerphotography.com/
Jennifer Ashby: http://www.jenniferashbyphotography.com/index2.php#/home/
4. I really want my family involved!!!! I really want my mom and my close friends to be the masterminds of the wedding.
5. I don't want to be pressured into anything I don't want to do...and for once I am going to chose and make decisions on what makes alex and I happy...not everyone else
5. I want this whole experience to be wonderful, easy going, and easy on my friends and family and I want to make sure it's as financially affordable for everyone and not have any kind of grey cloud over any of this :D
:D
SOOOOO EXCITED :D
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
Vintage, Sunny Yellow, Outdoors :D
I'm getting married!!!!!! to the most beautiful and amazing man that I know. I can hardly wait to start our lives together, but along with getting married comes planning! :D I can't wait to show my own personal DIY style and make this wedding completely tailored to Alex and I. :D The hardest part, in my opinion is over...letting the cat out of the bag with Alex's family that we are getting married on the west side of the state, close to my family. What a relief to get all of that sorted out.
Now it's time to get excited and enjoy these fleeting moments of being engaged! :D What a pretty ring too! So gorgeous.
Here are some ideas:
Outdoorsy...amongst trees, flowers, green growth. a place full of rich plant life and sun streaming in. I am thinking either a park...or a garden. I also would like an indoor option in case, heaven forbid, it rains.
I want my wedding to be vintage inspired. Classic and almost with a nostalgic feel to it. Like coming home. I also want it to be completely personable and a touch of art to each detail. My mother is going to be sewing the bridesmaid dresses and I plan on doing my invites by hand, me being the artist :D
I really like the back of the dress in this picture...I am thinking that I want a vintage form fitting flowy dress..with a hint of lace..I like little buttons as well...I'm thinking I don't want strapless just because I want to have a dance party and I don't want to be pulling up my dress the whole time. I also LOVE trains :)
I really like the feel of all of these ideas in this picture..I especially like the suit..I would definetly want to do something like this for the groom and groomsmen..
I want everything to be soft and yellow. I think I will only stick with one color, a sunny soft yellow and have cream and white hues.
I am really considering this in my hair along with a bird cage...maybe something not so big...
My all time hair accessory:
I am also thinking about having fabric flower pins for the sorority girls. They could pin it like a boutineer...these are really pretty...
I want pictures like these...well at least a couple:
Nature is my one true passion so there needs to be a feeling of "all natural" to the wedding as well :D
okay Erin...doesn't really compare to the goth weddings ;) but it's my cup of tea :D
Now it's time to get excited and enjoy these fleeting moments of being engaged! :D What a pretty ring too! So gorgeous.
Here are some ideas:
Outdoorsy...amongst trees, flowers, green growth. a place full of rich plant life and sun streaming in. I am thinking either a park...or a garden. I also would like an indoor option in case, heaven forbid, it rains.
I want my wedding to be vintage inspired. Classic and almost with a nostalgic feel to it. Like coming home. I also want it to be completely personable and a touch of art to each detail. My mother is going to be sewing the bridesmaid dresses and I plan on doing my invites by hand, me being the artist :D
I really like the back of the dress in this picture...I am thinking that I want a vintage form fitting flowy dress..with a hint of lace..I like little buttons as well...I'm thinking I don't want strapless just because I want to have a dance party and I don't want to be pulling up my dress the whole time. I also LOVE trains :)
I really like the feel of all of these ideas in this picture..I especially like the suit..I would definetly want to do something like this for the groom and groomsmen..
I want everything to be soft and yellow. I think I will only stick with one color, a sunny soft yellow and have cream and white hues.
I am really considering this in my hair along with a bird cage...maybe something not so big...
My all time hair accessory:
I am also thinking about having fabric flower pins for the sorority girls. They could pin it like a boutineer...these are really pretty...
I want pictures like these...well at least a couple:
Nature is my one true passion so there needs to be a feeling of "all natural" to the wedding as well :D
okay Erin...doesn't really compare to the goth weddings ;) but it's my cup of tea :D
Friday, September 3, 2010
Brains and success
For all of my life I was told what I should do. What the appropriate steps were in life and how to be the person you want to be and how to access all the material posessions you want in life. When I was little I remember my parents telling me over and over again "you have to go to college" and I also remember my Dad taking me school clothes shopping and saying "your tastes and interest in style will only be able to continue if you go to college and get a job." Over and over again I have been told what I need to do and the steps that MUST be taken for me to be successful in life.
But what is success exactly?
And why did I think that by doing all of these certain steps that I was doing the right thing for me?
Yes, I am sooooo happy I had supportive parents and people around me encouraging me to attend college. I am SO satisfied with my choice to go to a four year college and gain my Bachelor's degree in something that I found remarkable and intaeresting: Psychology.
The thing is...I have my degree, now what? The economy is not very accomodating to my needs and my knowledge feels almost fragile. I am paranoid and feel like I need to keep reading and keep studying or I will lose everything I gained. I don't want to lose all the hard work and the knowledge I have acquired. It's important to me.
I finally realized; I like to call it an "epiphone" so to speak, that I don't have to follow the next step in life. There is no "right" or "wrong" next step for me and I finally have the say in what I want to do, rather than mindlessly hopping into further education. I know I want to go back to school to gain a master's degree in Counseling, but what if that's not right for me right now?
I want to travel. I don't think there is anything wrong with this idea. I want to save up my money and travel through Europe and see the beautiful sights and people in this world. I don't want to cram my nose in anymore books, unless they are cultural or a guidance to the next place I will discover or travel.
Also another next step: marriage. I want to get married to Alex and I assumed this was the correct choice to make as soon as I finished college, but Alex and I both agreed that we should do more exploration and marriage and engagement will come in it's own sweet time, at the perfect time for us both.
I have been so stressed since I've been out of college about the fact that I am not doing anything with my degree or that I wasn't making a worthwhile impact in the world through my occupation.
You know what though? I worked at a Women's Shelter where I met tons of beautiful women and learned so much about the homeless population. I lived off of nothing as a result of my wages. Some would say I didn't gain that sense of "success" that alot of people would declare when focusing on the amount of money I was making.
I don't believe in right or wrong steps anymore in life. I believe in happiness and finding your calling and doing what you might need to do for right now until you find something you absolutely love and then when you do find that something going after it with all you can. There's my speil :D
So for now I'm working and searching for what's next and saving my money so I can travel and recreate and become my own influence on this world. :)
But what is success exactly?
And why did I think that by doing all of these certain steps that I was doing the right thing for me?
Yes, I am sooooo happy I had supportive parents and people around me encouraging me to attend college. I am SO satisfied with my choice to go to a four year college and gain my Bachelor's degree in something that I found remarkable and intaeresting: Psychology.
The thing is...I have my degree, now what? The economy is not very accomodating to my needs and my knowledge feels almost fragile. I am paranoid and feel like I need to keep reading and keep studying or I will lose everything I gained. I don't want to lose all the hard work and the knowledge I have acquired. It's important to me.
I finally realized; I like to call it an "epiphone" so to speak, that I don't have to follow the next step in life. There is no "right" or "wrong" next step for me and I finally have the say in what I want to do, rather than mindlessly hopping into further education. I know I want to go back to school to gain a master's degree in Counseling, but what if that's not right for me right now?
I want to travel. I don't think there is anything wrong with this idea. I want to save up my money and travel through Europe and see the beautiful sights and people in this world. I don't want to cram my nose in anymore books, unless they are cultural or a guidance to the next place I will discover or travel.
Also another next step: marriage. I want to get married to Alex and I assumed this was the correct choice to make as soon as I finished college, but Alex and I both agreed that we should do more exploration and marriage and engagement will come in it's own sweet time, at the perfect time for us both.
I have been so stressed since I've been out of college about the fact that I am not doing anything with my degree or that I wasn't making a worthwhile impact in the world through my occupation.
You know what though? I worked at a Women's Shelter where I met tons of beautiful women and learned so much about the homeless population. I lived off of nothing as a result of my wages. Some would say I didn't gain that sense of "success" that alot of people would declare when focusing on the amount of money I was making.
I don't believe in right or wrong steps anymore in life. I believe in happiness and finding your calling and doing what you might need to do for right now until you find something you absolutely love and then when you do find that something going after it with all you can. There's my speil :D
So for now I'm working and searching for what's next and saving my money so I can travel and recreate and become my own influence on this world. :)
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Top Ten Obsessions
I tend to be kind of an extreme person and often finicky so I like to document my obsessions/guilty pleasures because often they change, along with me. :) I have been pretty passionate in what I am enjoying these days and decided to make a top ten list. :D Here they are.
1. Everything Vintage...especially second hand. Drop Your Drawers has been my one favorite shop and down Monroe in the Garland area where there are ton of antique shops and little hidden away spots full of second hand steals just waiting to be found. And my one true obsession along with this category: Audrey Hepburn in all of her elegance. Also, the black and white photos of my grandparents are part of this obsession. I copied thirty of their photos and put them all around my room. They are so classy and beautiful.
2. Cassette Tapes..I guess this could probably fall under the category of vintage..but I have been really into buying cassette tapes. This inspiration for tape purchasing is owed to my honda...it only has a cassette player. My first two cassette purchases(second hand of course): A cassette called "Green Peace Rainbow Warriors." It's a compilation of seventies artists and quite the eargasm. haha. The second, The best hits of Steve Miller Band. More to come. :D
3. Playing soccer. I have recently rediscovered my love for the game and am desperately trying to find a girls team to put together and play outside. Outdoor games are just so much more enjoyable than indoor..although that season starts up come September.
4. Pizza..undoubtedly my most eaten meal. It's horrible..working at an amazing pizza place has turned me into a pizza monster. My favorite as of now: Margherita with pepperoni...or if I'm feeling more like being a vegetarian that day: the artichoke.
5. THE SEVENTIES. This is a lifelong obsession. HIPPIES AS WELL.
6. Post Secrets...the website and writing my own..as of now I have almost seventy secrets I have saved in a special spot.
7. DANCING. This is also a lifelong obsession, but I have currently been loving interpretive dancing and have found that I absolutely love dancing by myself almost more than dancing with other people.
8. Laying in hammocks..especially when a nap is included and underneath green trees.
9. EUROPE. I recently made a new european friend this year. His name is Gareth and he is a soccer coach at the camp I worked at this summer and he is so hilarious and I absolutely love his accent. Learning about Europe has made me want to travel there even more.
10. The water...lakes, sea, oceans...etc. this is also a lifelong obsession.
Top Artist this month: Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros.
1. Everything Vintage...especially second hand. Drop Your Drawers has been my one favorite shop and down Monroe in the Garland area where there are ton of antique shops and little hidden away spots full of second hand steals just waiting to be found. And my one true obsession along with this category: Audrey Hepburn in all of her elegance. Also, the black and white photos of my grandparents are part of this obsession. I copied thirty of their photos and put them all around my room. They are so classy and beautiful.
2. Cassette Tapes..I guess this could probably fall under the category of vintage..but I have been really into buying cassette tapes. This inspiration for tape purchasing is owed to my honda...it only has a cassette player. My first two cassette purchases(second hand of course): A cassette called "Green Peace Rainbow Warriors." It's a compilation of seventies artists and quite the eargasm. haha. The second, The best hits of Steve Miller Band. More to come. :D
3. Playing soccer. I have recently rediscovered my love for the game and am desperately trying to find a girls team to put together and play outside. Outdoor games are just so much more enjoyable than indoor..although that season starts up come September.
4. Pizza..undoubtedly my most eaten meal. It's horrible..working at an amazing pizza place has turned me into a pizza monster. My favorite as of now: Margherita with pepperoni...or if I'm feeling more like being a vegetarian that day: the artichoke.
5. THE SEVENTIES. This is a lifelong obsession. HIPPIES AS WELL.
6. Post Secrets...the website and writing my own..as of now I have almost seventy secrets I have saved in a special spot.
7. DANCING. This is also a lifelong obsession, but I have currently been loving interpretive dancing and have found that I absolutely love dancing by myself almost more than dancing with other people.
8. Laying in hammocks..especially when a nap is included and underneath green trees.
9. EUROPE. I recently made a new european friend this year. His name is Gareth and he is a soccer coach at the camp I worked at this summer and he is so hilarious and I absolutely love his accent. Learning about Europe has made me want to travel there even more.
10. The water...lakes, sea, oceans...etc. this is also a lifelong obsession.
Top Artist this month: Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros.
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Strangers
Isn't it interesting how there are people throughout your life that you become very close to and don't even talk to anymore? It's almost like you aren't even in the same world as them. There are people that I remember being so so close with. People throughout my life..friends...lovers...people I would talk to everyday, people who knew my fears and dreams and emotion. Now I don't know who they are. They walk through their days and I walk through mine and we are aliens to eachothers own worlds.
I guess it's a part of growing and learning who you want to stay in contact with. I've kept a journal all of my life..since I was seven and sometimes I like to look back on what I wrote a year ago today. Am I still feeling those same emotions? Is that person still important to me? Alot of the times they aren't. It isn't there. Moments and people are fleeting. It's a part of life that every single person on this planet can relate to. If there is someone out there that has stayed in contact with every single person they have been close with forever then I want to meet that person and learn their secrets. Or do I? The change is good sometimes. Sometimes those people aren't compatible with your new world...the changing "now" so to speak.
I have always had a problem with ending friendships or slipping away or losing touch with people..sometimes it's hard and sad and sometimes you don't even notice it, until one day something reminds you of that person or the past.
I wish I wasn't so nostalgic and sentimental. I could grasp the concept so much easier of lost closeness. Of someone understanding all of you and all of your world..and now you would awkwardly hide from them if you were to run into them in public (I hate small talk sometimes).
What if you had a chance to pick up from where you left off with someone? Would you take it? That best friend from grade school that always saved you a spot on the bus, that divorcee that held your heart in their hands, that significant other that made your head spin, that relative that knows all of the things that you got away with as a kid.
The world is so fascinating. So are the people in it.
I guess it's a part of growing and learning who you want to stay in contact with. I've kept a journal all of my life..since I was seven and sometimes I like to look back on what I wrote a year ago today. Am I still feeling those same emotions? Is that person still important to me? Alot of the times they aren't. It isn't there. Moments and people are fleeting. It's a part of life that every single person on this planet can relate to. If there is someone out there that has stayed in contact with every single person they have been close with forever then I want to meet that person and learn their secrets. Or do I? The change is good sometimes. Sometimes those people aren't compatible with your new world...the changing "now" so to speak.
I have always had a problem with ending friendships or slipping away or losing touch with people..sometimes it's hard and sad and sometimes you don't even notice it, until one day something reminds you of that person or the past.
I wish I wasn't so nostalgic and sentimental. I could grasp the concept so much easier of lost closeness. Of someone understanding all of you and all of your world..and now you would awkwardly hide from them if you were to run into them in public (I hate small talk sometimes).
What if you had a chance to pick up from where you left off with someone? Would you take it? That best friend from grade school that always saved you a spot on the bus, that divorcee that held your heart in their hands, that significant other that made your head spin, that relative that knows all of the things that you got away with as a kid.
The world is so fascinating. So are the people in it.
Monday, July 26, 2010
Cuddly Coaches
Life has been incredible for me. I have gotten the freedom and breath of fresh air that I have been undoubtedly praying to God for each day I was at the Women's Hearth. I absolutely loved the Hearth, but I knew that my heart was dragging behind me and I was starting to get weary working over fifty hours a week and feeling jaded by some of the women's situations. Now look at my life! I have gotten the break that I dreamed of the last day at the Hearth.
Coaching soccer has been so so amazing. I am truly loving my job. I get paid fifteen dollars an hour to help children become well acquainted with soccer and improve their skills. I also absolutely love all of the coaches. I never realized how much I missed being around people that were as active as I crave to be. The kids are incredible, and showing them the importance of hard work, aggression, competition, and how to kick a soccer ball is almost as rewarding as helping homeless women get the food and needs that they need. It's a completely different avenue.
This week I chose to coach the older kids. I was feeling a little bored last week doing crab soccer every day and the simple drills that the little tikes work on. I wanted some soccer! Some scrimmage! Some games! So I decided that I would coach the older kids this week and already the time is flying by. I am coaching them with Tim, Gabe, Cahen, and Andrew. I also have realized how much I truly miss working with men. I have become so accustomed to working with women and being surrounded by women that I forgot how nice it is to have those guy friends at work everyday. Cahen is back this summer!!! It's so nice to come back to camp after a year and be reunited with some of the coaches from last year.
Cahen is seventeen and he looks like he's twenty three. If I had a young friend I would totally set her up, because he's gorgeous. lol. He is my bosses little brother and I adore him. He is such a sweetie. It seems like he is finding it somewhat refreshing to have a female around as well, due to the fact that his brothers are all "boy" so to speak and have that older sibling type of competition in their spirit. I saw him when I walked out on the field and a huge smile spread across his face. I gave him a big ol' hug and I felt relieved to have some of my old close to heart friends back. He's staying for two weeks now and it will be a blast. I kind of look at him as kind of a younger brother. :D big surprise...trish being overly motherly once again. Oh well.
Then there is Janessa. I love Janessa. I played indoor soccer with her for so long and never got a chance to get to know her. She just came back from traveling all over England and I am picking her brain apart every chance I get. She is so down to earth and easy going. :) Also..there is Gaz, the European friend that she had travel over to the states to coach soccer as well. He is hilarious and I love hearing all about England from him...even though his accent makes him somewhat hard to understand..which can be kind of embarrassing.
Then there is Andrew. Oh Andrew. He reminds me so much of Tommy that often I have the urge to scratch his back for him and ruffle up his hair like I do with my sweet baby brother. haha. He is a total sweetheart and is so passionate about his friends that instantaneously I feel reconnected to him although I hadn't seen him since last years camp.
Then Jaymes. Tim's older brother. He is in his late thirties and there is something incredibly sincere about him. At first I felt like our personalities clashed a little because he tends to be a little over the edge competitive which makes me feel a little intimidated. My first judgemental impression of him was that he was a hard headed jock that would be cocky and impossible to talk to about any of my views on the wrongs of sexism in soccer and how liberated I feel trying to go against the gender stereotypes being a somewhat decent soccer player...that is a...gasp...girl. Low and behold he is nothing like what I judged. He is kind and soft hearted. He also is incredibly encouraging and quite the leader. I feel a sense of ease and connection with him as a "big brother" figure. So low and behold it's almost as though I am coaching soccer with a whole bunch of younger and older brother. Which all in all makes me feel at home :)
Today was incredible. After soccer all the coaches got together and we spent the entire day at coure de lane and went swimming and jumping off of rocks and doing the rope swing. What a rush. Then we went out to dinner and all in all I was alarmed by how at peace I was with all of these people I had just recently connected with. Also, the trees, water, and sunshine were a masterpiece today. I love having friends that can keep up with my activity. The coaches at camp are always looking for a new path to bike down..a new place to play soccer..or a new place to hike or swim. It makes my heart happy because alot of the time I feel like I wear my friends out because I want to keep going! Keep moving! :)
Life is good. <3
Coaching soccer has been so so amazing. I am truly loving my job. I get paid fifteen dollars an hour to help children become well acquainted with soccer and improve their skills. I also absolutely love all of the coaches. I never realized how much I missed being around people that were as active as I crave to be. The kids are incredible, and showing them the importance of hard work, aggression, competition, and how to kick a soccer ball is almost as rewarding as helping homeless women get the food and needs that they need. It's a completely different avenue.
This week I chose to coach the older kids. I was feeling a little bored last week doing crab soccer every day and the simple drills that the little tikes work on. I wanted some soccer! Some scrimmage! Some games! So I decided that I would coach the older kids this week and already the time is flying by. I am coaching them with Tim, Gabe, Cahen, and Andrew. I also have realized how much I truly miss working with men. I have become so accustomed to working with women and being surrounded by women that I forgot how nice it is to have those guy friends at work everyday. Cahen is back this summer!!! It's so nice to come back to camp after a year and be reunited with some of the coaches from last year.
Cahen is seventeen and he looks like he's twenty three. If I had a young friend I would totally set her up, because he's gorgeous. lol. He is my bosses little brother and I adore him. He is such a sweetie. It seems like he is finding it somewhat refreshing to have a female around as well, due to the fact that his brothers are all "boy" so to speak and have that older sibling type of competition in their spirit. I saw him when I walked out on the field and a huge smile spread across his face. I gave him a big ol' hug and I felt relieved to have some of my old close to heart friends back. He's staying for two weeks now and it will be a blast. I kind of look at him as kind of a younger brother. :D big surprise...trish being overly motherly once again. Oh well.
Then there is Janessa. I love Janessa. I played indoor soccer with her for so long and never got a chance to get to know her. She just came back from traveling all over England and I am picking her brain apart every chance I get. She is so down to earth and easy going. :) Also..there is Gaz, the European friend that she had travel over to the states to coach soccer as well. He is hilarious and I love hearing all about England from him...even though his accent makes him somewhat hard to understand..which can be kind of embarrassing.
Then there is Andrew. Oh Andrew. He reminds me so much of Tommy that often I have the urge to scratch his back for him and ruffle up his hair like I do with my sweet baby brother. haha. He is a total sweetheart and is so passionate about his friends that instantaneously I feel reconnected to him although I hadn't seen him since last years camp.
Then Jaymes. Tim's older brother. He is in his late thirties and there is something incredibly sincere about him. At first I felt like our personalities clashed a little because he tends to be a little over the edge competitive which makes me feel a little intimidated. My first judgemental impression of him was that he was a hard headed jock that would be cocky and impossible to talk to about any of my views on the wrongs of sexism in soccer and how liberated I feel trying to go against the gender stereotypes being a somewhat decent soccer player...that is a...gasp...girl. Low and behold he is nothing like what I judged. He is kind and soft hearted. He also is incredibly encouraging and quite the leader. I feel a sense of ease and connection with him as a "big brother" figure. So low and behold it's almost as though I am coaching soccer with a whole bunch of younger and older brother. Which all in all makes me feel at home :)
Today was incredible. After soccer all the coaches got together and we spent the entire day at coure de lane and went swimming and jumping off of rocks and doing the rope swing. What a rush. Then we went out to dinner and all in all I was alarmed by how at peace I was with all of these people I had just recently connected with. Also, the trees, water, and sunshine were a masterpiece today. I love having friends that can keep up with my activity. The coaches at camp are always looking for a new path to bike down..a new place to play soccer..or a new place to hike or swim. It makes my heart happy because alot of the time I feel like I wear my friends out because I want to keep going! Keep moving! :)
Life is good. <3
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Soccer Sweeties
So far coaching the little adorable kidlings has been amazing. I got the age group of 5-9 and they are total sweethearts. Of course there is the occasional child that wants to throw a stick or hack at your legs instead of kick a soccer ball around. Still I find every piece of them endearing :).
Working with children in the sunshine, you can't help but smile and the coaches seem to have an awesome attitude this year. I am glad that we got more coaches so that the work is a little bit more diluted.
I can't help but think about what I was like as a kid. Was I one of the "favorites" or was I one of the weird ones off playing in the dirt. All I can remember about being a child is being facinated by everything especially nature(big surprise) and I definetly remember only wanting to socialize. I am pretty sure I was one of those kids that the coaches were constantly telling to shutup. I do remember being really competitive at my soccer camp as a kid and hating when I wasn't the best at something. I kind of wish I got a chance to see my closest friends as children so that I could understand them even more..and see how they have grown into the beautiful people they are.
Children are incredible. The innocence of the world. I can't wait to have at least five of my own. :D hahah...a million babies and a million puppies..that's what I want.
An interesting aspect of this job is that I am done at noon everyday and some days don't even work at my second job. This means that I am working half the amount of time I was before, but getting paid more. Which is such a curious awareness. Now I have so much free time...right after some of my closest friends have moved far away. How depressing. Still I am enjoying the free time :D More running! and yoga!
Working with children in the sunshine, you can't help but smile and the coaches seem to have an awesome attitude this year. I am glad that we got more coaches so that the work is a little bit more diluted.
I can't help but think about what I was like as a kid. Was I one of the "favorites" or was I one of the weird ones off playing in the dirt. All I can remember about being a child is being facinated by everything especially nature(big surprise) and I definetly remember only wanting to socialize. I am pretty sure I was one of those kids that the coaches were constantly telling to shutup. I do remember being really competitive at my soccer camp as a kid and hating when I wasn't the best at something. I kind of wish I got a chance to see my closest friends as children so that I could understand them even more..and see how they have grown into the beautiful people they are.
Children are incredible. The innocence of the world. I can't wait to have at least five of my own. :D hahah...a million babies and a million puppies..that's what I want.
An interesting aspect of this job is that I am done at noon everyday and some days don't even work at my second job. This means that I am working half the amount of time I was before, but getting paid more. Which is such a curious awareness. Now I have so much free time...right after some of my closest friends have moved far away. How depressing. Still I am enjoying the free time :D More running! and yoga!
Monday, July 19, 2010
summa summa time!
My favorite things about the summer so far:
-coaching soccer
-lake time :D
-My introduction to Sessions Black..yum
-GETTING MY CAR
-cherries :D
-dance parties with the crew
-riding my bike
-going running
-yoga in the sunshine
-Finch Arboritum--the amazing trees!!
-Tom Petty concert(for free!)
-Ashel coming to visit me
-Fourth of july bbq with erin :D
-mini family reunion
-summer dresses :D
Least favorite things:
-SAYING GOODBYE to friends :(
-coaching soccer
-lake time :D
-My introduction to Sessions Black..yum
-GETTING MY CAR
-cherries :D
-dance parties with the crew
-riding my bike
-going running
-yoga in the sunshine
-Finch Arboritum--the amazing trees!!
-Tom Petty concert(for free!)
-Ashel coming to visit me
-Fourth of july bbq with erin :D
-mini family reunion
-summer dresses :D
Least favorite things:
-SAYING GOODBYE to friends :(
Monday, July 12, 2010
Second hand world
I am addicted to the second hand world. Ever since I have been doing Americorps..making six dollars an hour I have found shopping to be somewhat of an art...or perhaps a competition. Now that it's summer I want new summer clothes..so I have been impulsively going out and trying to find the cutest stuff to wear this summer. Since I'm broke I have been second hand shopping and it's glorious. I have found some really good finds and you just throw them in the wash and vwuh lah! It's new. haha. My current top five second hand stores:
1. Fringe and Fray: The most vintage of them all and filled with jewelry that the owner hand crafted herself from grandmothers pins and pearls.
2. Drop Your Drawers: You must have patience, but finding that perfect yellow sundress after half an hour..totally worth it. :D
3. Plato's Closet: A little bit on the expensive side (hahah in the thrift world) but you can find some pretty cute stuff here and you can trade!
4. My friends closet: can't beat that..haha
5. Finders Keepers: some pretty hainus stuff..but very entertaining..haha.
1. Fringe and Fray: The most vintage of them all and filled with jewelry that the owner hand crafted herself from grandmothers pins and pearls.
2. Drop Your Drawers: You must have patience, but finding that perfect yellow sundress after half an hour..totally worth it. :D
3. Plato's Closet: A little bit on the expensive side (hahah in the thrift world) but you can find some pretty cute stuff here and you can trade!
4. My friends closet: can't beat that..haha
5. Finders Keepers: some pretty hainus stuff..but very entertaining..haha.
Monday, June 14, 2010
Top Three Current Favorite Places...
Currently I have been in constant want of traveling..leaving..a vay-cay..getting away from it all and in three days I'm hopping on a plane and heading out to cali. In leu of this trip I decided to list the top three...of course I haven't done a ton of traveling but what I have done..I definetly have favorites. :)
1. Santa Cruz, California.
Not only are the people there friendly, tan, and relaxed with a hippie attitude and free spirited minds so are the trees. :) The trees are phenomenal here..the hugest redwood trees I have seen. The sun is almost ALWAYS shining and on top of having a glorious beach, forest, and downtown shopping it has a few choice friends that I absolutely adore from camp. Kara and Danny aka: Cupcake and Mowgli.
2. The Gorge in George
The open sky...sitting on the lush grass...listening to awesome music, and a hot temp with flowy skirts and a pbr in hand. (Although those pbrs are nine dollars!! Major downfall). It's hard to say my two favorite things in the world but music and the outdoors are really up there...so the combination of the Gorge and phenomenal live artist is a dream come true. Also the contact high(not much of a smoker) of good ol' mj adds a nice touch to a relaxed afternoon. ha.
3. Manito Park
This park is full of mystery and romantic lure. The greenhouse and japanese garden are my absolute favorite. Everything in this park is mesmerizing and hits all senses...even taste..if you stop by the scoop before hand and get yourself a cone to munch on around the park. I love being around the little kids at the park that are astounded by the turtles, catfish, and ducks in the pond. Simplicity is bliss here.One of my favorite places to run, bike, or even just stroll. :)
1. Santa Cruz, California.
Not only are the people there friendly, tan, and relaxed with a hippie attitude and free spirited minds so are the trees. :) The trees are phenomenal here..the hugest redwood trees I have seen. The sun is almost ALWAYS shining and on top of having a glorious beach, forest, and downtown shopping it has a few choice friends that I absolutely adore from camp. Kara and Danny aka: Cupcake and Mowgli.
2. The Gorge in George
The open sky...sitting on the lush grass...listening to awesome music, and a hot temp with flowy skirts and a pbr in hand. (Although those pbrs are nine dollars!! Major downfall). It's hard to say my two favorite things in the world but music and the outdoors are really up there...so the combination of the Gorge and phenomenal live artist is a dream come true. Also the contact high(not much of a smoker) of good ol' mj adds a nice touch to a relaxed afternoon. ha.
3. Manito Park
This park is full of mystery and romantic lure. The greenhouse and japanese garden are my absolute favorite. Everything in this park is mesmerizing and hits all senses...even taste..if you stop by the scoop before hand and get yourself a cone to munch on around the park. I love being around the little kids at the park that are astounded by the turtles, catfish, and ducks in the pond. Simplicity is bliss here.One of my favorite places to run, bike, or even just stroll. :)
Friday, June 4, 2010
Dreams
Lately I have been having the most bizarre dreams. I think it has something to do with the fact that I have had alot of change in my life recently with the move and turning twenty-three and my job soon ending in July. Also, multiple people have informed me that I have been present in their dreams. It's very odd. I can't help but wonder if there is a dream world.
The subconscious is a very confusing and mysterious thing. If you dream about someone romanticly does that mean you have harbored feelings? Or does it just mean that your mind is curious and wondering about things that you would never let your conscious think about? Lately I have had very anxious dreams...dreams of running away or not being able to speak or getting caught or lost. It's all so peculiar. I truly think that the subconscious does alot of internal healing for us while we sleep, and this is one of the many reasons why sleep is so necessary. I really do think that our mind tries to sort out ideas, feelings, and relationships when we don't have our conscious filter on. It's almost relieving to be able to wake up and remember some of the wierd experiences you had in a dream. It's exciting and unrational and completely obsurd, the thoughts that are thought in a dream and it's almost reviving to the soul to be wierd and abstract and not always having to make sense of thoughts, feelings, and ideas.
I also think that people use dreams as an excuse. For example, some of my ex-lovers have popped out of nowhere to say "I had a dream about you last night." I mean sure, maybe they really did have a dream about me, but really I can't help but think..well this is kind of a cop-out.
I think that people are afraid to feel and say certain things in their life so they use dreams as a sort of way of expression, like a love letter written, but never given. I mean, it's wierd to think that I have gotten in violent fights in my dreams with people I have never ever stood up to or said anything against. I have also loved, apologized, and forgiven people in my dreams that in real life I still hold a grudge against. I also have cheated on alex about a million times in my dreams and it's all so wierd. What does it all mean? I wonder what Freud would say and how he would interpret my dream analysis. I can only wonder.
And those people that don't remember their dreams...I'm so glad I remember my dreams. I have learned so much about myself and internalized feelings through these thoughts floating and weaving through slumber.
The subconscious is a very confusing and mysterious thing. If you dream about someone romanticly does that mean you have harbored feelings? Or does it just mean that your mind is curious and wondering about things that you would never let your conscious think about? Lately I have had very anxious dreams...dreams of running away or not being able to speak or getting caught or lost. It's all so peculiar. I truly think that the subconscious does alot of internal healing for us while we sleep, and this is one of the many reasons why sleep is so necessary. I really do think that our mind tries to sort out ideas, feelings, and relationships when we don't have our conscious filter on. It's almost relieving to be able to wake up and remember some of the wierd experiences you had in a dream. It's exciting and unrational and completely obsurd, the thoughts that are thought in a dream and it's almost reviving to the soul to be wierd and abstract and not always having to make sense of thoughts, feelings, and ideas.
I also think that people use dreams as an excuse. For example, some of my ex-lovers have popped out of nowhere to say "I had a dream about you last night." I mean sure, maybe they really did have a dream about me, but really I can't help but think..well this is kind of a cop-out.
I think that people are afraid to feel and say certain things in their life so they use dreams as a sort of way of expression, like a love letter written, but never given. I mean, it's wierd to think that I have gotten in violent fights in my dreams with people I have never ever stood up to or said anything against. I have also loved, apologized, and forgiven people in my dreams that in real life I still hold a grudge against. I also have cheated on alex about a million times in my dreams and it's all so wierd. What does it all mean? I wonder what Freud would say and how he would interpret my dream analysis. I can only wonder.
And those people that don't remember their dreams...I'm so glad I remember my dreams. I have learned so much about myself and internalized feelings through these thoughts floating and weaving through slumber.
Monday, May 17, 2010
HAPPY.
I literally am beaming. I feel like my whole heart is glowing right through my chest and my smile feels authentic and original. Getting baptized was the most spiritual thing I have ever done and I finally feel ready to gain solidity in my relationship with God. It's weird to think of all of the mistakes I've made and am still making. It's wierd to think how hurt my heart was for so long in all those crummy situations. But here I am. Away from it all. And here I am brand new.
But right now. I know that everything is going to be okay. No matter what.
I also can't help but feel so grateful for the friendships that I have and the amazing boyfriend I have. The relationships I have right now are all so right and so sturdy and true. I am so very thankful and so blessed.
But right now. I know that everything is going to be okay. No matter what.
I also can't help but feel so grateful for the friendships that I have and the amazing boyfriend I have. The relationships I have right now are all so right and so sturdy and true. I am so very thankful and so blessed.
Thursday, April 29, 2010
Mean Girls
Lately..I don't know what it is but something has been in the air...and whatever it is it's not settling well with estrogen. I am CONSTANTLY surrounded by women every single day at my job. At my job there are only women allowed in the facility and let me tell you..I need a little more guy in my life. Not even in a sexual way at all..just to have a balance of testosterone. ugh.
It's the end of the month, which means that most of the women are testy, irate, and pretty much impossible. This is due to the fact that all of their funds from the government are depleting, therefore making their lifestyle a more struggling one. They are volcanic and ready to explode at any moment, at the smallest thing. A woman called the police on herself yesterday because she was going to kill herself. Then we had to take care of this other woman who had a freak out because her bus couldn't pick her up earlier. Then we had another woman almost try to get in a physical fight with one of our staff members and throw food and coffee around and then finally stomped out of the building cursing and volitile. It's all so overwhelming. I feel like I am walking on egg shells just waiting for the next episode.
At my second job there is a nasty girl that absolutely hates me. The second I started working there she was rude, snobby, and bossy. I don't know what it was about me that rubbed her the wrong way, but whatever it is I have no control over it. It's obviously a shallow reason, given the fact that she knows absolutely nothing about me, and nothing about my depth and personality. This girl is just mean. I don't even want to go into all of the crap she has said and done to me, because it will just get me all worked up and I will start daydreaming about all of the choice words I could say to her, and me physically punching her in the face. Last night I couldn't fall asleep because I was so angry.
Good thing my mom is coming into town this weekend. Mom's make everything better.
It's the end of the month, which means that most of the women are testy, irate, and pretty much impossible. This is due to the fact that all of their funds from the government are depleting, therefore making their lifestyle a more struggling one. They are volcanic and ready to explode at any moment, at the smallest thing. A woman called the police on herself yesterday because she was going to kill herself. Then we had to take care of this other woman who had a freak out because her bus couldn't pick her up earlier. Then we had another woman almost try to get in a physical fight with one of our staff members and throw food and coffee around and then finally stomped out of the building cursing and volitile. It's all so overwhelming. I feel like I am walking on egg shells just waiting for the next episode.
At my second job there is a nasty girl that absolutely hates me. The second I started working there she was rude, snobby, and bossy. I don't know what it was about me that rubbed her the wrong way, but whatever it is I have no control over it. It's obviously a shallow reason, given the fact that she knows absolutely nothing about me, and nothing about my depth and personality. This girl is just mean. I don't even want to go into all of the crap she has said and done to me, because it will just get me all worked up and I will start daydreaming about all of the choice words I could say to her, and me physically punching her in the face. Last night I couldn't fall asleep because I was so angry.
Good thing my mom is coming into town this weekend. Mom's make everything better.
Monday, April 26, 2010
Summer lovin...
So far my summer is looking like it has the potential to be infinitely awesome. Here are all of the details that lead me to this conclusion:
1. Melissa just recently got gifted a hammock for the backyard
2. I have an amazing swimsuit that is adorable and completley functional for eg. volleyball, swimming, tubing, fishing, etc.
3. We have a bbq
4. We have a hot tub
5. Alex is moving into a house and has purchased a bbq as well
6. I am working completely outside this summer: the pizza place opens up to outdoor and coaching is obviously outdoor
7. I hopefully will be purchasing a car
8. My rent is $50.00
9. Ash and Ty time :)
10. We will have a dog Chelsea, Melissa's dog
11. Melissa also got gifted topsy turvy's so we can plant tomatoes and we are also planting a vegetable garden as well(I realize I sound old by saying this..but I don't care..lol)
12. I have some phenomenal books that I am ready to break in for my summer list
13. Melissa's lake cabin
14. a week at Alex's parents lake cabin
15. intertubing at such lake cabin
16. camping
17. Seeing Erin's finished product (her new home)
18. Going to the beach house with Ashel for the weekend
19. visiting my brother in Washington D.C. and going to New York
1. Melissa just recently got gifted a hammock for the backyard
2. I have an amazing swimsuit that is adorable and completley functional for eg. volleyball, swimming, tubing, fishing, etc.
3. We have a bbq
4. We have a hot tub
5. Alex is moving into a house and has purchased a bbq as well
6. I am working completely outside this summer: the pizza place opens up to outdoor and coaching is obviously outdoor
7. I hopefully will be purchasing a car
8. My rent is $50.00
9. Ash and Ty time :)
10. We will have a dog Chelsea, Melissa's dog
11. Melissa also got gifted topsy turvy's so we can plant tomatoes and we are also planting a vegetable garden as well(I realize I sound old by saying this..but I don't care..lol)
12. I have some phenomenal books that I am ready to break in for my summer list
13. Melissa's lake cabin
14. a week at Alex's parents lake cabin
15. intertubing at such lake cabin
16. camping
17. Seeing Erin's finished product (her new home)
18. Going to the beach house with Ashel for the weekend
19. visiting my brother in Washington D.C. and going to New York
Thursday, April 22, 2010
Sugar Baby looking for Sugar Daddy..hahaha
My lack of transportation is really starting to get in the way of my life. I am finding that I am almost at the point of having a disability, really. Not only am I incredibly afraid of driving..but even if I could face my fears and get behind the wheel I don't have one to get behind. I just recently started saving my money for a car and am getting progressively defeated by the fact that I make less than minimum wage and this second job...well it's helping me out a little but I HAVE NO PATIENCE. I want to spend my money on traveling...ironically so..without a vehicle..I want to spend my money on cute shoes and skirst and dresses and concerts and IPods and going out to eat and beer and presents for my friends and a bathing suit and and and...lol. Ugh..why can't I just find a sugar daddy to buy me a car? My life would be SO much simpler. I don't even want something nice..I just want a cute little beater. There's got to be a faster way in getting my own wheels..but then what??? I am scared of getting in another accident and dieing. I have got to start growing up someday..or I could just be one of those "permanent passengers." Why not? lol.
Here are my ideas for resolving this problem:
http://www.sugardaddyforme.com/?mode=startme&welcome_to_sugarDaddyForMe.com&x_source=A2_444570:-
so that I can get this:
Here are my ideas for resolving this problem:
http://www.sugardaddyforme.com/?mode=startme&welcome_to_sugarDaddyForMe.com&x_source=A2_444570:-
so that I can get this:
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Artsy Fartsy
I am getting addicted to painting. It is starting to become my newfound passion and I have been a painting maniac. I went to Jo-Anne's yesterday and they were having a HUGE sale. I was in heaven. I bought three different canvases and some new paint and paintbrushes. I can't wait...CAN'T WAIT..to figure out what I shall paint..and how exactly I will be inspired.
I am painting Melissa a picture for her birthday..since I am a little new at this whole painting thing I'm using other art for inspiration and adding my own touch. I started painting last night and was up way too late unable to put my brush down. Now I understand Van Gogh forgotting to eat, painting for days. It's incredibly liberating...my brush stroking the canvas..mixing colors..creating ideas from shapes and lines...the world dissapears when I am with my art. I can't wait to give Melissa the piece that I am working on right now. It's kind of goofy though when I really get at it I start concentrating so much that I forget to breath...kind of a blonde comment but I literally hold my breath focusing so much..putting all of my energy into each brush stroke. When I was done last night I literally felt lightheaded and a little out of it. haha. I had to climb in bed..but was so excited from painting that it took me an hour to fall asleep. I am so easily amused by this world.
I am thinking after this piece I am going to work on something for my mom..it's gotta be good though...It will take me awhile to find some inspiration...but out of everyone I think my mom would appreciate my work :)
I would also like to try some mixed media ideas. Still thinking....
If only I was as good as Klimt..gosh he's amazing:
apparantly this original piece has real flecks of gold in it. SO BEAUTIFUL.
I am painting Melissa a picture for her birthday..since I am a little new at this whole painting thing I'm using other art for inspiration and adding my own touch. I started painting last night and was up way too late unable to put my brush down. Now I understand Van Gogh forgotting to eat, painting for days. It's incredibly liberating...my brush stroking the canvas..mixing colors..creating ideas from shapes and lines...the world dissapears when I am with my art. I can't wait to give Melissa the piece that I am working on right now. It's kind of goofy though when I really get at it I start concentrating so much that I forget to breath...kind of a blonde comment but I literally hold my breath focusing so much..putting all of my energy into each brush stroke. When I was done last night I literally felt lightheaded and a little out of it. haha. I had to climb in bed..but was so excited from painting that it took me an hour to fall asleep. I am so easily amused by this world.
I am thinking after this piece I am going to work on something for my mom..it's gotta be good though...It will take me awhile to find some inspiration...but out of everyone I think my mom would appreciate my work :)
I would also like to try some mixed media ideas. Still thinking....
If only I was as good as Klimt..gosh he's amazing:
apparantly this original piece has real flecks of gold in it. SO BEAUTIFUL.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Baby Bar
The Baby Bar. Where do I begin? I am completely loyal and oh so prone to forcing all of my friends to accompany me down the street to the glorious baby bar. Many would much rather go to the Blue Spark where the "in" crowd may be..or hip hop/rap would be playing, but me...you'll find me at the baby bar.
I tend to gravitate towards people who are a little out of the ordinary(hence the reason I work at a homeless shelter..lol)..it's more entertaining that way and I find that people have more to say and less to prove or a standard to live up to when a little bit more on the rougher "scenester" side persay. I love all the punks and all of the indie artsy people that flood this place for PBR's and this amazing drink called the greyhound..freshly squeezed grapefruit juice with vodka. :D
Not only are the people spectacular and oh so interesting..but the music is phenomenal. They have a juke box that's fifty cents a song filled with the most incredible music anywhere from the Ramones to The Shins. The second I walk in I gravitate to the jukebox and make my carefully selected top picks.
Also the art! Amazing amazing art is constantly rotating on the walls of the Baby Bar. Although this bar is about the size of your bedroom..the art makes it feel cozy and very eclectic.
Every Wednesday I can't help but creep on down to the Baby bar...have myself a $1 PBR and if I'm hungry walk next door to Neato Burrito(all in one building) for a phenomenal burrito.
Although many would rather have a dance party with men that look like they should be on Jersey Shore to music that has lyrics like "Call me Mr. Flinstone I can make your bed rock" or go down to the Blue Spark to be squished by overly drunk girls that look like they forgot an extra two inches in their outfit....I would much rather be with all of the musically inclined and fashionably sensible, but too cool to care hipsters who smoke too many cigarrettes and bike through the city drinking PBR's or Sessions.
I tend to gravitate towards people who are a little out of the ordinary(hence the reason I work at a homeless shelter..lol)..it's more entertaining that way and I find that people have more to say and less to prove or a standard to live up to when a little bit more on the rougher "scenester" side persay. I love all the punks and all of the indie artsy people that flood this place for PBR's and this amazing drink called the greyhound..freshly squeezed grapefruit juice with vodka. :D
Not only are the people spectacular and oh so interesting..but the music is phenomenal. They have a juke box that's fifty cents a song filled with the most incredible music anywhere from the Ramones to The Shins. The second I walk in I gravitate to the jukebox and make my carefully selected top picks.
Also the art! Amazing amazing art is constantly rotating on the walls of the Baby Bar. Although this bar is about the size of your bedroom..the art makes it feel cozy and very eclectic.
Every Wednesday I can't help but creep on down to the Baby bar...have myself a $1 PBR and if I'm hungry walk next door to Neato Burrito(all in one building) for a phenomenal burrito.
Although many would rather have a dance party with men that look like they should be on Jersey Shore to music that has lyrics like "Call me Mr. Flinstone I can make your bed rock" or go down to the Blue Spark to be squished by overly drunk girls that look like they forgot an extra two inches in their outfit....I would much rather be with all of the musically inclined and fashionably sensible, but too cool to care hipsters who smoke too many cigarrettes and bike through the city drinking PBR's or Sessions.
Workin Woman
Got offered a job at South Perry Pizza! It will probably be a summer fling kind of relationship, but I will go with that idea right now...hoping that I find a job soon that relates to my degree :D It's this adorable place that can be almost all outside in the Perry District. I am going to be a waitress there until I hear about the Miryam's job. :D fingers crossed! I am super excited though, because I will be serving beer and pizza and will be close to home. I will also be making tips! Whoo! I just hope that I'm good at this whole serving thing :D
Now I'm going to be soooo busy! This only means that I will finally have enough money to save up for a car :D
When it comes to cars I'm a junkie lover. I love all thos adorable beaters that have alot of character and are somewhat vintage in the way they look. I really want an old jetta...any volkswagon really. I adore vw's. I'm afraid with much dismay, that Alex wouldn't be caught dead with me riding some beat up adorable little vehi. I can keep praying ;D.
Lately I've been OBSESSED with thrifting. I got this steal of a deal purse the other day at this adorable little boutique called "Tangerine." It's completely eco-friendly and is made out of recycled vintage material. :D
Earth Day is coming up and I really want to get all the ladies to come together to plant some trees..but unfortunately I will be doing this DV simulation which is going to be very depressing and overwhelming..you literally go through the steps of what it is like to flee from domestic violence..I am sure I will learn alot but it will be incredibly heartwrenching I'm sure.
SUNSHINE. FRESH FRUIT. COTTEN DRESSES. CURLY HAIR. BIKING. TRAVELING. LOVE.
Now I'm going to be soooo busy! This only means that I will finally have enough money to save up for a car :D
When it comes to cars I'm a junkie lover. I love all thos adorable beaters that have alot of character and are somewhat vintage in the way they look. I really want an old jetta...any volkswagon really. I adore vw's. I'm afraid with much dismay, that Alex wouldn't be caught dead with me riding some beat up adorable little vehi. I can keep praying ;D.
Lately I've been OBSESSED with thrifting. I got this steal of a deal purse the other day at this adorable little boutique called "Tangerine." It's completely eco-friendly and is made out of recycled vintage material. :D
Earth Day is coming up and I really want to get all the ladies to come together to plant some trees..but unfortunately I will be doing this DV simulation which is going to be very depressing and overwhelming..you literally go through the steps of what it is like to flee from domestic violence..I am sure I will learn alot but it will be incredibly heartwrenching I'm sure.
SUNSHINE. FRESH FRUIT. COTTEN DRESSES. CURLY HAIR. BIKING. TRAVELING. LOVE.
Friday, April 9, 2010
I'm not your mom
Homeless women surround me asking favor after favor today. One woman asked me to take her back to the storage room to get some pots and pans for her new apartment, now that she is finally not homeless anymore. I take her back there and of course she talks me out of almost everything back there. So convincing. I need to learn how to say no!!!! :D
Also...I want so badly to retreat to my home, throw on my treads and head out the door on a long run...soaking in the sunshine...I would love to run and weave through the trees at Manito and run by people walking their dogs and throwing frisbe...instead I will trudge this day out til 5:15 and make my get-away to Zola's where a stellar happy hour awaits me, along with live music, and hippies with their hula hoops.
My job is amazing, and life is going wonderful...but how I long for the beach, freedom, and no longer witnessing every domestic violence situation and the jaded perception.
Also...I want so badly to retreat to my home, throw on my treads and head out the door on a long run...soaking in the sunshine...I would love to run and weave through the trees at Manito and run by people walking their dogs and throwing frisbe...instead I will trudge this day out til 5:15 and make my get-away to Zola's where a stellar happy hour awaits me, along with live music, and hippies with their hula hoops.
My job is amazing, and life is going wonderful...but how I long for the beach, freedom, and no longer witnessing every domestic violence situation and the jaded perception.
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