Top Wedding Thoughts

Because I am the bride and it's my perogative I feel that I need to make a list of what's important to me when looking at this wedding Alex and I are going to have. Here is my top list :D

1. Outside Venue! Preferably trees and nature
2. DIY..I want to do alot of the designing and putting together of the wedding myself..or with my mom's creative skills..
3. Photography! I really want my photography to be top notch..something that really represents me. :D Alex and his family really like Jennifer Ashby..I like her as well..another top pick for this is Rendy Tucker...here are their two websites.

Rendy Tucker: http://www.rendytuckerphotography.com/
Jennifer Ashby: http://www.jenniferashbyphotography.com/index2.php#/home/

4. I really want my family involved!!!! I really want my mom and my close friends to be the masterminds of the wedding.
5. I don't want to be pressured into anything I don't want to do...and for once I am going to chose and make decisions on what makes alex and I happy...not everyone else
5. I want this whole experience to be wonderful, easy going, and easy on my friends and family and I want to make sure it's as financially affordable for everyone and not have any kind of grey cloud over any of this :D

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SOOOOO EXCITED :D

Vintage, Sunny Yellow, Outdoors :D

I'm getting married!!!!!! to the most beautiful and amazing man that I know. I can hardly wait to start our lives together, but along with getting married comes planning! :D I can't wait to show my own personal DIY style and make this wedding completely tailored to Alex and I. :D The hardest part, in my opinion is over...letting the cat out of the bag with Alex's family that we are getting married on the west side of the state, close to my family. What a relief to get all of that sorted out.

Now it's time to get excited and enjoy these fleeting moments of being engaged! :D What a pretty ring too! So gorgeous.

Here are some ideas:

Outdoorsy...amongst trees, flowers, green growth. a place full of rich plant life and sun streaming in. I am thinking either a park...or a garden. I also would like an indoor option in case, heaven forbid, it rains.




I want my wedding to be vintage inspired. Classic and almost with a nostalgic feel to it. Like coming home. I also want it to be completely personable and a touch of art to each detail. My mother is going to be sewing the bridesmaid dresses and I plan on doing my invites by hand, me being the artist :D



I really like the back of the dress in this picture...I am thinking that I want a vintage form fitting flowy dress..with a hint of lace..I like little buttons as well...I'm thinking I don't want strapless just because I want to have a dance party and I don't want to be pulling up my dress the whole time. I also LOVE trains :)


I really like the feel of all of these ideas in this picture..I especially like the suit..I would definetly want to do something like this for the groom and groomsmen..

I want everything to be soft and yellow. I think I will only stick with one color, a sunny soft yellow and have cream and white hues.

I am really considering this in my hair along with a bird cage...maybe something not so big...

My all time hair accessory:

I am also thinking about having fabric flower pins for the sorority girls. They could pin it like a boutineer...these are really pretty...

I want pictures like these...well at least a couple:


Nature is my one true passion so there needs to be a feeling of "all natural" to the wedding as well :D


okay Erin...doesn't really compare to the goth weddings ;) but it's my cup of tea :D

Brains and success

For all of my life I was told what I should do. What the appropriate steps were in life and how to be the person you want to be and how to access all the material posessions you want in life. When I was little I remember my parents telling me over and over again "you have to go to college" and I also remember my Dad taking me school clothes shopping and saying "your tastes and interest in style will only be able to continue if you go to college and get a job." Over and over again I have been told what I need to do and the steps that MUST be taken for me to be successful in life.

But what is success exactly?

And why did I think that by doing all of these certain steps that I was doing the right thing for me?

Yes, I am sooooo happy I had supportive parents and people around me encouraging me to attend college. I am SO satisfied with my choice to go to a four year college and gain my Bachelor's degree in something that I found remarkable and intaeresting: Psychology.

The thing is...I have my degree, now what? The economy is not very accomodating to my needs and my knowledge feels almost fragile. I am paranoid and feel like I need to keep reading and keep studying or I will lose everything I gained. I don't want to lose all the hard work and the knowledge I have acquired. It's important to me.

I finally realized; I like to call it an "epiphone" so to speak, that I don't have to follow the next step in life. There is no "right" or "wrong" next step for me and I finally have the say in what I want to do, rather than mindlessly hopping into further education. I know I want to go back to school to gain a master's degree in Counseling, but what if that's not right for me right now?

I want to travel. I don't think there is anything wrong with this idea. I want to save up my money and travel through Europe and see the beautiful sights and people in this world. I don't want to cram my nose in anymore books, unless they are cultural or a guidance to the next place I will discover or travel.

Also another next step: marriage. I want to get married to Alex and I assumed this was the correct choice to make as soon as I finished college, but Alex and I both agreed that we should do more exploration and marriage and engagement will come in it's own sweet time, at the perfect time for us both.

I have been so stressed since I've been out of college about the fact that I am not doing anything with my degree or that I wasn't making a worthwhile impact in the world through my occupation.

You know what though? I worked at a Women's Shelter where I met tons of beautiful women and learned so much about the homeless population. I lived off of nothing as a result of my wages. Some would say I didn't gain that sense of "success" that alot of people would declare when focusing on the amount of money I was making.

I don't believe in right or wrong steps anymore in life. I believe in happiness and finding your calling and doing what you might need to do for right now until you find something you absolutely love and then when you do find that something going after it with all you can. There's my speil :D

So for now I'm working and searching for what's next and saving my money so I can travel and recreate and become my own influence on this world. :)